Monday, November 13, 2006

Getting out of busyness, again

How did I do it when I was working 60-hour weeks and trying to have a life? Over the past six weeks I got very busy—well, “very” is relative, but I did help my son roof a cabin, set up a website for the Authentic Movement Community, have houseguests, submit a manuscript to my writing group, join a dance group of differently-abled people, and do some of my own writing. All good things.

Now I’m making the transition back to “my own time.” It’s hard to describe the difference. It’s not like I do nothing, but I have the sense of doing nothing. It’s not like I have endless time, but I attempt to treat it as endless. I stop the lists running in my head (I have one on the kitchen counter for the basics). I notice that voice that keeps asking “What next?” and “What should I be doing?” “Nothing,” I answer the voice.

“Shouldn’t you check email?” “It will wait.”

“Shouldn’t you do errands?” “They can keep.”

I spend time looking out the window at the branches waving in the wind. I suddenly have ideas for three poems—now those are worth the time! I take a walk. I make tea. I write this essay. Tomorrow is a busy day but I have three days in a row after that with no fixed points. What luxury!

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penumbra_ said...

I like the last paragraph you have there. I think you have a good life. Thanks for sharing.
Quoted you in my tumblr blog, hope it is okay (nov 28 entry of )

Ann McNeal said...

I'm delighted you found this worthy of quoting. Yes, I do have a good life, thanks.


Mary M. said...

I was just checking out different blogs and came upon yours about Retirement.

I've been retired from the University of Illinois since 1979 so have been fortunate to have many years to practice my art, dance, spend time with family and enjoy some days when I do "nothing of importance". I've loved every minute of my time as you have.

We are very fortunate.

Here is one of my blogs